So confused :S

Life is confusing me these day's...

No-one ever says what they really want or mean.

I mean, I really like this guy who apparently doesn't like me but still he fools around with me at lunch in school. Really, what would you say that could mean.

Anyway, as I was saying life confuses me and I don't like being confused. It just annoys me.

I think to get through life I must have some kind of daily rant on the blog, it just makes life all the more easier for me.

Rants do make life easier! Try it.

I need my music as well xD

My New Playlist ;D

This is what I occasionally listen to when not blogging my little heart out :P

I Predict A Riot - Kaiser Chiefs
A Dustland Fairytale - The Killers
Bones - The Killers
Endlessly - Muse
Supermassive Black Hole - Muse
Knights Of Cydonia - Muse
Muscle Museum - Muse
New Born - Muse
Bliss - Muse
Uprising - Muse
Nine In The Afternoon - Panic! At The Disco
I Write Sins Not Tragedies - Panic! At The Disco
Brianstorm - Arctic Monkeys
Never Miss A Beat - Kaiser Chiefs
Don't Trust Me - 3OH!3
Love Is Noise - The Verve
Meet Me On The Equinox - Death Cab For Cutie

It is pretty basic, but most of my other music is on a USB somewhere...not entirely sure where but still.

I highly recommend all of this to everyone ;D

(Especially the Muse songs) xD!

Jeeeez =)

I was watching TV earlier and happened to just realise that I haven't done a blog in so long. So as if by magic I appear here before you with another blog.

So much has happened in the past two months I think its been. Wow sooooo long.

Exam results were a bit sucky his year compared to the 4 A's, 2 B's and 1 C last year. Instead this year I got a highly unfair 1 B, in English, and 3 D's in Maths, Chemistry and Biology. These were unfair for several reasons, firstly 'cause I studied my ass off for Chemistry and Biology ( Maths not so much), secondly my exams were at the worst possible time, about 3-4 weeks after my papa died and thirdly...well, I didn't have a third but still...so unfair. I thought the SQA would have at least taken into consideration my circumstances around my exams and why I did so badly. I do get an appeal of Chemistry though, its only a C but I'm happy with that I guess. I'm not entirely sure whats happening about Biology, but at the moment I couldn't care less.

Oooo that was an awfully long rant, amazing my ranting abilities have progressed.

Well, now I'm back at school, in S6 *yawn*, it is a major bore. Upon starting back again I had to change subjects so instead if Higher Chemistry and Higher Biology, I'm now doing Crash Higher Media Studies and Intermediate 2 Travel & Tourism. Higher Media is awesome, one of the best subjects that I've ever took and because of that I know want to get into Journalism or Communication with Media. Seriously, studying a Buffy The Vampire episode as part of your NAB is amazing, and to me its super easy. Intermediate 2 Travel & Tourism is a major yawn fest. I'm completely able at all that's in the course I mean I could ramble off tourist attractions in New York in 3 seconds I'm that good.

Oooo more rambling. Hehe. Short intermission me thinks.

And back again.

We just did the S1 Fun Run which was awesome I guess. I got to stand around in the rain for an hour or so whilst S1's ran past soaking and mostly dressed up. There were some pretty good costumes, for example, an S6 volunteer who was running decided to run dressed as a women, bra and skirt...just another normal day in school.

Jeez, just scrolled up and seen my ramble fest that is the first blog in months for me.

Well, ehhmm, I guess that's really it...

Ooooo I have more up my sleeve.

I recently got a tooth out...I was soo brave. HAHA!! The feeling of half my mouth being numb was slightly awesome and weird at the same time. Although about an hour or so after getting it done, I thought it would be clever to eat a yoghurt...not one of my best decisions. Just imagine yourself really really tired and not being fully aware or really drunk, thats how I felt.

It was awesome =]

Anyway, thats me done...I think...ehhmm yeah I'm sure that I'm done now.

I'll just stop talking, maybe that would be good for us all.

So..

I'm guessing that this is going to be a weekly thing now then...I don't know why I do this, when there are probably only 2 people at maximum who read this.

Anyway, life has been pretty much the same since last times blog entry. Apart from the fact that I went to see Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince (which was awesome by the way) that's basically it.

I'm cutting this one short as my laptop charge is about to run out.

So I'll leave you with a couple of links:

My deviantART profile: http://lilium-lily.deviantart.com/

My Twitter account: http://twitter.com/Gillian_Clarke (follow me by the way, just send me a message saying that you seen the link on my blog)

Au revoir

xD

Remembered xD

I actually remembered about this..look at me, I'm growing.

Average day to day life with the summer holidays is slowly progressing, meaning that I'm becoming increasingly bored-er (?) with everything.

Good things: I'm going to see Harry Potter on Saturday 25th, and I can't wait, its meant to be amazing. Tom Felton a.k.a Draco Malfoy looking especially dashing.

Erm...thats about it for good things at the moment, life is slightly boring, you could probably tell though.

I'm actually looking forward to school starting in August, although I have to get passed the dreaded exam results first.

So, erm, as you could tell my life is boring right now, so that means that my blogs are going to be boring.

Anyway, I shall report later.

Au revoir. ;D

You know what...

...I completely forgot about this. Isn't that just awful of me, utterly disgraceful. I should be ashamed of myself. Well, I'm not believe it or not. :P

I didn't even check to see when my last blog update was anyway..so I couldn't even say how long I've forgotten about it.

Life has been..okay, I guess, could be better. Although at the moment it's Summer Holiday time..and I'm doing absolutely nothing. I'm not going on holiday, I'm not going anywhere, and so far I haven't seen any of my friends. Things are looking great so far. Although, the first week I had a kind of holiday from my sister as she went on holiday with the rest of my family whilst I stayed at home and looked after my Nana's dog. Good times. That's probably been the highlight of my summer holiday so far. Then there was a whole day at the beach, which was pretty awesome. Even coming home and seeing that I was completely burnt, I still enjoyed it. Certainly not the best summer ever. I still have rock climbing to look forward to hopefully and my Harry Potter day with my friend Heather, which is going to be super. We were planning to wear witches hats and have wands, but I don't know if I can be bothered to be honest.

I still have major artist block, I have no clue what to draw. I absolutely hate it. My poor tablet is getting a bit dusty and sad because it hasn't been used in forever it seems.

I am also missing school quite a lot to be honest. At least when I'm at school I have something to do, but when I'm in the house I have nothing to do. Anyway, I'm getting through the summer, quite painfully though. Oh well, never mind.

I'm not really sure what else to write about to be honest, life has been extremely boring lately.

My amazing dream of actually wanting to go and see Muse live is completely shattered, because I have no money to pay for tickets and my parents are unwilling to give me the money. Anyway, there is always the DVD of the concert. :P

That's what I did with the HAARP concerts in Wembley seeing as I couldn't get down there to see them.

Muse is actually what I'm listening to right now. Coincidence...I think not. :D

Just looked at the preview of this blog update, and oh yes, it's a long one. But I guess you've figured that out by reading my rambling words already.

Thanks by the way. ;D

I think a farewell for now is in order, but I can't say if i'll remember to update it again. Who knows I might remember next week or I might remember a year from now..hopefully now though.

Au revoir.

:P

Confused...

Since doing my previous blog, thing's have changed and everything is getting kind of good in a way.

Life has been good with everything going okay in a way.

Heather and my conversations about people we like have become so random to some extent. Only she actually knows who I like, along with several other people who could probably guess.

I am becoming to quite enjoy writing my Personal Reflective Essay as it is bringing back lots of memories about my Papa, which I like.

I'm cutting this blog short because I'm not very well and I'm really hot and need a cold shower.

Au revoir

:D

Meh...

I'm so bad at keeping my promises of trying to do a daily blog or several blogs a week. Apart from this, you could probably trust your life in my hands. Well, maybe not to be honest.

It has now been 11 days since I last done this blog and that kind of annoys me. I don't know why but it does.

S6 has been amazing so far, having all the free periods and our own base, with none of the younger years to annoy us, it really has been quite good fun. I have also started all of my classes, apart from Community Involvement, which starts in October. Other then that, I have started Chemistry, Biology and English. All of these are going quite well, with the exception of Personal Studies and Personal Reflective essays due before the summer even ends.

Anyway, life's been good, no complaints...so far.

...The sun has disappeared again, we're stuck with this horrible, miserable rain right now, which is kind of depressing as the summer holidays are only a week away.

Can you tell that I'm just randomly saying things now to make this long??

I'm like that.

Well, ermm, I think I have ran out of things to say now. That's not really normal for me. Although playing cards in school now every time we have a free period kind of takes all the energy out of you. That and the constant walking around school trying to find something to do, which never works.

Anyway, I think that's about it for now. I will probably remember to do another blog in about a week or so, which might be good because you can't really do one everyday can you. Or I might just post one every couple of days. I'm not sure yet, we'll see nearer the time, in other words, when I remember.

Au revoir.

:D

Jeez....

Its been a massive 9 days since I've made any attempt at writing my so called daily blog. Well, actually, that's not true, the other night I was thinking about doing one but, to be honest, that would have meant that needed to turn my laptop on and well you know how it is. At least I hope you do.

In these past 9 days nothing remotely interesting has happened. Over these past few days, lets see, I have finished all of my exams (yay me), I have been out in the sun for almost every waking moment seeing as I do live in Scotland and I am making the most of it and....that's about it. There was the village fair, but seriously, that was the most incredibly boring day of my life, no decent stuff to do and to top it all off, if you wanted an ice cream, it would have cost you about £4. As I said, boring!

Although, now I am looking forward to S6 which starts on Monday and I can't wait for that. Study leave has become so boring that I am actually wanting to go back to school. If that's not weird then, I don't know what is.

Exams went pretty well apart from the Maths exam, which was the most difficult and truly boring exams ever.

And I mean EVER.

Chemistry was so hard that I spent the half hour after it had finished in my teachers classroom talking about it. He also told me who I was getting next year for chemistry, which was pretty good. Although I'm sure that he is really glad he won't be getting Claire and myself next year, because, well he hates us, lets just put it that way.

Aha Twitter just popped into head as always. I have admittedly become a Twitter addict. And to be honest I don't care. :D

If you ever want to follow me on Twitter, its just at the right hand side of the screen to my blogs at the top. If you understand that then good, because I'm not so sure that I do.

Oh Australia here I come. I am definitely going to Australia next year, probably about a week or two after I finish school for good for a year. I can't wait, it's going to be awesome, I get to spend time with my aunt, uncle and their son Daniel, my little cousin. :D

This, however, means that I give up going to prom, which I'm okay about really, I wasn't planning on going anyway. I mean, whats the point in spending £50 for a ticket...it just confuses me. Instead I'm being given a £500 plane ticket to a once in a lifetime opportunity. Yeah, I think I would chose Australia any day.

Anyway, this has been like a months blogging work for me.

Au revoir.

:D

Easy-Peasy

I'm in a super mood today as I done my Biology exam, and well the title of this blog kind of tells you how it was. It was in actual fact one of the easiest exams ever, that's including last year's exams.

Nothing much has been going on in the life that is mine. To be honest I actually can't remember what I did last week, because well, I have the memory span of a goldfish.

I did eventually get the first three Death Note books last weekend, and then I finished them in two days basically. Now I'm re-reading them, and this will probably go on for a while until I can get enough money to get the others. I only have one more exam to go, Chemistry, probably one of the slightly more harder ones for me, seeing as I missed three weeks of it last year, and then my teacher couldn't be bothered to catch me up.

That's basically it to be honest, and I know your thinking, oh no why can't it be longer, and well I can't really be bothered to make it any longer.

I will do the whole blog a day thing from now on!

Au revoir.

Ermmm...

Every time I come to write this blog the titles keep on getting harder to think of *sigh*.

Anyway..nothing much has been happening in the world of Gillian. Today was one of the warmest day's ever, extremely warm. Really, outside playing badminton all day has to quite healthy for you, unlike my obsession with Death Note (ha Steven I mentioned it) which is lets say, not very healthy as I have watched the movie repeatedly and I am soon buying the manga series. Can't wait!!

Well, what can I say about the Maths exam. Lets just say that it sucked. The stupid hard questions and other stupid stuff got me really, really annoyed. Although when I was giving back the textbooks and revision pack thing, it suddenly hit me that I will never have to touch another Maths book as long as I live. That kind of topped my week off.

My next exam is Biology on Thursday, but I'm pretty well prepared for that. I am really confident, but not overly confident.

I'm super happy now, I got my S6 tie today and I can't wait to start S6. I'm just happy I don't have to take the new S1's around the school for the first week. Taking a bunch of screaming and shouting S1's round the school for a week, isn't my idea of fun. I'll stick to the Higher English, Chemistry and Biology thank you very much.

Anyway, this has probably angered Steven, because he so desperately wants to see if I mentioned Death Note, which I did.

I really have to cut down the length of these but I really don't want to :D

Au revoir.

Death Note!!!

Death Note And Several Other Things..

Death Note :D

I love my new obsession :D

I'm in love with it all now, it always puts me in such a good mood!!

Anyway, I guess the whole do a blog everyday thing has gone out the window. To be honest, i'm to busy studying. If I was speaking this you would seriously have to note the sarcasm there, I don't know if the italics help, if it doesn't, then oh well. This week has been pretty boring, nothing much has been going on apart from the obvious amount of studying i'm doing (see there I go again with the italics). To be brutally honest, i've been re-reading Angels and Demons when i've meant to be studying and i've also been re-reading Death Note: Another Note. These two books are the best books in the world. Then again, there is the Twilight Saga....

Fine then, there are several very good books, but honestly Death Note and Angels and Demons, kind of beat Twilight, New Moon, Eclipse and Breaking Dawn put together.

These are my opinions, so don't get angry with me. What's that right again..Freedom of Speech or something like that, i'm not sure.

Ha in your face!!! Sorry i'm watching a really funny programme right now and I thought i'd put that in, it seemed the right kind of moment to do so.

Anyway, I kind of drifted away from the point really. What was my point again (scrolls back up)..nah I can't find anything that I was trying to say.

So before, my rambling becomes infectious to all of you people, i'm just going to stop typing now.

Au revoir :D

(Damn I typed!)

Damn i'm just going to stop........now!!

P.S Admin sucks!!

Stopping now!!

Damn....

I did say that I was going to post a blog everyday, but that didn't really work did it. Just pretend today is Saturday then, and whoever reads this blog from now on will be one day behind everyone else.

Think of yourself as special :D

I sure do :D

Anyway, I went to see Angels and Demons yesterday and let me say it was amazing. I especially loved the twist at the end. I still prefer the book though. Although they did change a lot in the film. For example, the camerlengo's name was different, how Langdon got to the Vatican was different, and so on. They did keep some thing's the same though which was good.

I am also completely addicted to Death Note. I discovered it ages ago in Waterstones but never bought it, as I probably bought around five other books that day and had no money left. Anyway, yesterday I went in and bought, and well, i've nearly finished it already. Study leave does have it's advantages. I am now trying to save enough money to buy the rest of the books, there are, mind you, almost twenty or thirty of them.

What else.....

Aha whilst I type this I am listening to Muse, Time Is Running Out and watching Friends with the mute on. I don't particularly know why i've told you this, but what can you do.

I have also realised that I type a lot when I do this blog, oh well.

Au revoir :D

What to say..

I didn't realise how long it had been since my last blog, I thought it had only been, well, a week which it is...

Anyway, a lot has happened in the past week or six days however you want to look at it. Back to the point now, I can't actually remember last weekend, basically because it was last weekend. Although I did get the book Angels and Demons, and I set a task for myself to finish it for tomorrow, and I have. This is because I am going to see the movie tomorrow, can't wait, it's going to be awesome.

Study leave and exams, a thing on everyone's mind right now! Today was the english exam and I think I did quite well in it. The first half was no doubt the easiest, but the second part included doing two essays, which well, didn't go quite as well.

Oh and when Claire, Susie, Steven and myself were done at the shops today, the most embarrassing thing happened to me. Well lets just say that I kind of fainted, I don't really know how to describe, but anyway, yeah I can't remember a thing and thats whats bugging the hell out of me!!

This week has been a little bit more eventful than any other week.

Oh and if that wasn't embarrassing enough, I was made to sit in the main foyer for fifteen minutes today, whilst everyone walked by staring at me. Really, really embarrassing!!

Let me just say if you want a week this eventful, then wait until your exams, get really nervous and then well, I don't know but we went to a park and that kind of made me feel a little bit worse. So, go and have an eventful week.

I'm off for now, i'll post a blog tomorrow, definitely!!

I promise!!

:D

(I don't care if this gets boring for you by the way, its whats being going on in my life!)

From The Depth's Of My Sketch Book

You may recognise this one, if you are a massive fan of Watchmen, like I am.

This sketch didn't very long, reason being I got bored so I thought I might as well. It is currently hanging outside in my back garden. :D

Immense Boredom

There's nothing like a serious dose of extreme boredom to start your weekend on. I have absolutely nothing to do and if I even try and study, i'll probably get even more bored!! There is one thing that cheers me up when i'm bored though....dA!! DeviantArt provides a cure to boredom, I seriously spend 2, 3 hours at a time looking at truly inspirational work. I do have my own profile, which i'll put a link in at the end for all those who want to see it. I do have my own Wacom Bamboo graphics tablet, which I would be lost without, and about 20 issues of my favourite magazine, ImagineFX. Although when I can't think of something to draw I usually just take my camera and go photograph something.

Nothing much has happened today, seeing as it is only 3 o'clock-ish!! I probably will post another blog later, filling you's all in on my day.

So, for now I bid you farewell!!

:D

Oh and the link to my dA profile is http://lilium-lily.deviantart.com/

Friday Finally

Thank goodness it's Friday, I couldn't have gone another day with all my teachers repeatedly going over stuff. Anyway, it was the S6's last day and apart from some shirt signings and weird dances in the middle of the lunch hall, nothing happened. Well, there was the Pirates' vs Ninja's Battle in the lunch hall at lunch, which was pretty funny to watch them all make fools out of themselves. Yeah, well, as I said a really uneventful day. After school was pretty boring as well to be honest. I did make some money from babysitting, which will come in handy when I go to see Angels and Demons, which looks awesome by the way.

That's about it for today!!

So for now I bid you farewell!!

(Damn i'm still doing that daft parting thing!!)

xD

Well...

Not a lot happened today, pretty normal day for me today. There was the final part of the S6 show, which was pretty awesome, well to be honest the only acts that were remotely funny were my friend Lauren's dance routine and Ross' weird gay thing. Then there was the immense amount of sweets that I ate in Biology, way too much, and after that there was PE with Heather. It was our last ever period of PE together seeing as we aren't taking it next year. I'm really going to miss the random, and very weird moments we have. Oh well, onwards and upwards!! Can't wait until S6 in a month or so. I only have one more period of PE left until I never have to do it again and five more periods of Admin, one of the worst subjects ever, and four more periods of Maths. I really can't wait!!!

Anyway, the whole, putting a blog on everyday or so is going very, very well for me.

So for now I bid you farewell!!

:D

(Notice that I have my own wee cheesy leaving message!!)

Party :D

Well, today was actually quite a good day. First of all, there was the the wonderful S6 show, to be honest watching some of your friends make complete fools of themselves is really entertaining!! Also, there was the chemistry party we had today. Although it was quite annoying that we had to past papers without speaking because of people at the back of the classroom doing something, i'm not to sure what they were doing, they could have been plotting something, but, oh well. I really couldn't have cared less to be honest. There was another downside to it and that was that I felt extremely sick afterwards, and so did several other people. I don't think that having several bits of tablet and then having a sugar rush is a good idea in a classroom. Then leaving school the rain starts chucking down and I was stupid enough to leave my jacket at home. Clever me!! I end up standing around for the bus to come, getting very wet.

On the whole though today was quite a good day. Also, eating Haribo's before double Admin, not a good idea, a good breakfast yes, but not a very good start to double Admin. And then eating a whole handful of them at break and then going to English very hyper with Claire, also not a very good idea.

So for now I bid your farewell!!

:D

Hmm..

What to write, what to write, what to write?!

I sent the link of my blog to a friend to try and persuade him to join and start one, only for him to turn around and say that it's funny...

I am slightly perplexed as to why this would be, I don't find it funny, but thats me and my mind is already quite perplexing!! :D

Sadly though I haven't been able to persuade him to start one, but oh well what you going to. Good news though, I had a double timed essay today in English just about one hour after I woke up, not a good start to the day. Although I was extremely worried that I would fail, I think that I have done quite well, i'm being confident about this. But not overly confident!!

Furthermore the countdown to exams has begun, although most teachers have been counting down since the beginning of the year, i'm just starting. I don't know if thats a good thing or not. One week on Friday I will be sitting my English exam. Woohoo :D

I'm actually doing quite well with the updating the blog thing, everyday or so, quite proud of myself!!

So for now I bid you farewell!!

:D

Another Week Of School :(

As the exams are getting closer i'm actually beginning to realise the terror of me not knowing enough!! I have also realised that I haven't posted a blog in, ohh, a couple of weeks. Oh well, i've had a lot going on in the past couple of weeks and have just had no time to do this. The only thing thats really going through my head at the moment is looming exams and the fact that I will be in S6 in a month or so. The realisation terrifies me to the core. I am also checking everyday practically to see when tickets for the Muse Autumn Tour will be sold!! Can't wait, probably the only exciting thing I have to look forward to at the moment. I know I keep saying that I will post at least one blog a week, and well, that is really not working at the moment. When summer time hits i'll be doing this almost everyday!! Speaking of summer, after the first two weeks are past I seem to get extremely bored of it all and can't wait to get back to school, and then I can't wait for the holidays to come again, I lead a very strange life!!

So for now I bid you farewell!!

:D

Yes! Go Me

Well, I have actually done two of the items that I put on the list! I am quite proud of myself!

I have found something to draw, you have no idea how happy I am, I am not sitting around anymore trying to figure out what to draw -sigh of relief- .

Furthermore, I have posted a blog - this blog actually - a day after I wrote my first ever blog!!

I still haven't completed two full past papers yet, oh well, I will get plenty done during class :)

My To-Do List For The Next Day!!

Well, the holidays are coming to an end, and the realisation of my end-of-year exams has set in. A little later than I thought it would but still, I am kind of panicking about whether or not I know everything that I need to know. So, I think a to do list is in order. This is probably the first to do list that I have ever done, so, bare with me!!

1. I will complete at least one past paper in Biology.
2. I will complete at least one past paper in Chemistry.
3. I have to find something to draw, because if I don't, I'll go crazy!!
4. I have to update this blog at least once a week, if not more than that.

Aha, I can right a blog after all, and I was having doubts about this. So, just bare with me, as I said, I may or may not update this blog regularly and I probably won't complete this to do list, but I am going to try and do it!!